Anxious Baby Syndrome

 I should be used to curveballs by now. I feel like the past year has been nothing but unpredictable. Rain on the wedding day, James' surgery, pregnant 3 months into marriage, my little sister has a serious boyfriend, spending 12 weeks of summer apart from James during his summer job, coming back to school without knowing where we'll live, thinking we would be moving back to San Diego after James graduates in December but we've decided to stay an extra semester so he can finish up a business minor. Now I have been in the hospital on the labor & delivery floor for the passed 2 1/2 days being monitored and evaluated for preterm labor. Scary!
We went to my 30 week appt and it was business as usual on Thursday morning. Then she checks my cervix and the outer part was dilated 2 cm. That's not that big of a deal but the fact my contractions had been increasing was a red flag. The clinic sent me over to the hospital and they weren't worried until it was my cervix was checked again and the inner part was dilated 1 cm and 50% effaced, basically making my body 6 weeks ahead of schedule. They gave e a series of shots to increase and speed up Mei's lung development and I have been on meds to slow contractions. Good news is as of yesterday I haven't dilated any further but my test evaluating me for preterm labor was positive. It doesn't mean I will have her prematurely but it would have been a lot better had it been negative because that meant I for sure wouldn't have her within the next two weeks at least.
All I can really do is rest. They've put me on formal bed rest so I had to quit my job at the bakery. Very bummed! but when all of it boils down, I will do whatever I can to keep my sweet babe inside and grow her myself :) She is perfectly healthy and has done great with all the exams, prodding and monitors in her space! Our little trooper!
Even with all things unpredictable I know it serves a purpose. It teaches us patience and shows us who is REALLY in charge! Not us, that's for sure.
We are grateful for all the support of our family and friends especially Paola and Michael Black, Otto Zelaya, Oscar Zelaya, Sister Hsu and everyone else who offered to visit and help with whatever we need!
You guys are so great and support at scary times is so appreciated! We have all the faith in the world that everything will be fine.

James- you have been a support like no other when I know there were fun things you missed just to keep me company and be my biggest asset and supporter. You are an angel, a great Father and incredible husband. Couldn't do it without my Shay-mesh! Ruv you rong rong time!